im meeting serene over at tbp later. shes having exams. all the best to her. well. she need to borrow my IJ uniform. so i lend it to her. i cant bear to throw my beloved IJ uniform away. hehe. im proud to be a IJ girl. haha! serene, remember to take good care of the uniform okies. haha!

well. yesterday. its a messy day lars. got up and slacked for awhile while jan was tidying up the house. and my brother is a pig. scream at him just to wake him up he still dont wanna wake up. till jan went to talk and wake him up den he finally yuan yi wake up. pig man. real pig. more pig than me. haha!

the three of us went to the wet market to do some marketing. haha!! omg. i dont really like to go to the wet market lahz. so wet and dirty and smelly! we bought fish, pork, vegetables and many many, walked pass this sotong stall and my brother asked if i wanna buy sotong, i replied no, coz i saw the man digging his nose.haha! and its all the ingredient for the steamboat we are gonna have for our [breakfast cum lunch cum dinner]. after the wet market. we went to DAYOU the departmental store to get more things. i got myself chocolate! haha. im really in love with chocolates! and chocolate mei was my nickname when i was younger. haha! and i love ferrero rocher alot alot! hahA! and bought rice. sigh. my house dont have rice for dont know how many months. i seldom cook, i always eat out. and i bought milk. hehe. chocolate milk also.. hehe. and also the YAMYAM stick biscuit. dip with chocolate also. ahahaha!

be prepared for my complains now..

got home. the only man in the house did all the cooking. coz i dont know how to prepare the things la. meanwhile, phone rang and disaster falls!the little devils are coming my place! and so they came and my uncle start to put his stuff at my place. not one thing but many! sigh. my house become warehouse. well. he isnt doing well..so nvm. but aunt lehz. she dump her things at my place for YEARS. and my balcony is filled with her rubbish. she dont come and take. and just leave it. i feel so mei mian zi if i bring friends home lohz. its so untidy. cannot take it. my house but its not filled with my things but other people stuffs. aunt got two houses anyway. one person only. and she need to dump her things at other people's house. her balcony are filled with flowers while mine are filled with her junk. yesterday uncle came and dig some of her junk out, and indeed its junk. most are to be thrown away ones. and put some of the things out in the balcony with shelter uncle said that aunt will take. and i know aunt too well. i know she wouldnt come. and i said if it rain im so not gonna bother. and true enough it rain this morning. and i mean what i say. i did not bother. not only the junks in the balcony im upset about. she took my house as her warehouse for years before i wanted to move in lohz. and ive got this house for like 5-6 years if im not wrong. and till now, ive stayed for only 2 years.. how good she is right. the rooms and living room were so filled with her stuff i couldnt even walk. and it reduced to the balcony.but why my hse and not hers? she is selfish lor. -sighz- forgive.. forgive..

and i dont like the little children to come my place coz if theres anything wrong with them, my brother and i will be blamed. coz their mother only know how to blame people. jus in case u dont know who im saying about, she is the materialistic one. as some of you know, my pets are cats. and her daughter has asthema. and the other will sneeze and if they sneeze mean something wrong one worz! cough also. if they visit my place and go home sneeze or cough or asthema. means my house liao. siao bo? and thats the problem when parents aint in Singapore. sigh. when will my dad come home? my dad is a real taiwanese now. sigh!

and their mother is really a..sigh.bo wei gong loh. so no manners. i call people i will hello and say who i am and start to talk. and talk in a polite way. she hor. called my hp hor. HELLo also dont say. screamed at me sia. feel like telling her off. so no manners. basic manners also dont have. whatsmore she is kinergarden teacher. omg. poor little children who are her student. oh shes a fake anyway. at home one kind outside another kind. so the children..alright. wun kanna her virus. lol.

went to her place. she screamed at me again. keep pushing me to work. was in the car with uncle.both talking. and i told him i dont wanna work coz im schooling. i dont wanna commit in two things now. and we both talked la. all the problems la. sianz. im a student with many many problems. thank God for strength. oh.. and i told uncle something. i said: dad dont take care of me. the only thing he gives is money. and now got another family. and know what uncle replied? you grow up already can take care of urself and its good that ur dad bought you a house. im like DOTZ. but true la. hehe. im gonna be 18 soon anyway. what will you do if you have a dad like mine? loves you but dont take care of you? loves you but remarried? loves you but told you if you wan the love im sorry i cant give? loves you but called once in a blue moon? loves you and come home once? loves you but know nothing about you? and he cant afford to take care of me already. loves me but cant afford to take care of me? but i dont know why i still loved him. i still dont hate him but i always wonder..im so gonna become miss WHY. but that is when im closer with my brother. and thats when i know what kinship really is. thru all this unfaithful matters, im still strong la! haven die yet. haha! and im still keeping on till now. im so proud of myself hahahaha!and, with my brother around.. im very very happy!

and SADLY~! he is leaving for australia this WEDNESDAY. damn.. im lost already. my gor is flying off.. i cannot gor gor this and that liaos. cannot whine when i see him.cannot disturb him liao.cannot laugh at him liao.cannot joke with him liao.cannot eat food prepared by him liao.cannot watch tv with him liao. and worst! he will not be back on the 15th. sigh! and he must be honoured. i whine to him and only him hahahahhahaa!

and thats the end of my complains! i feel much better. haha!

be blessed my dear faithful readers!!!

*yawn. just got up from my dreamland and i was like sneezing like mad. and now my nose tio stucked. aRgh. i cant breathe lahz.

i did not sleep well at all. Argh.. as some of you know, i went for badminton on friday. and till now my whole body is still aching. OUCH. whenever i sleep, wanna change position, my goodness. i will have no choice but to wake up coz its too painful lahz. and i cant change to the position i wanted. sighz.

yesterday met up with dearest at her house downstairs and my kind dearest helped me to carry a very heavy bag lah. ive no strength anymore. haha. thank you so much dearest. hehe. then, the both of us head down to tbp to do some marketing. bought the ingredients for the spaghetti im gonna prepare. and nuggests. bought two packets of nuggest and dearest ate only 5! sighz.

and i dont deny my spaghetti yesterday is totally a CMI one lah. sighz!

my brother came home and saw the spaghetti. he asked: jessie you got put salt before cooking the spaghetti? i replied: i forgot. and he said: wow your spaghetti look like french fries. well. i have no idea why some of the spaghetti stick together ones lehz. and tio burned one lehz.

and my spaghetti turned out to be harden la. the noodle la. sigh. and brother said: next time you wanna keep the noodle for long. put some oil. well i was thinking to keep some food for him ma. and i dunno how only ma. so i just leave the noodle there lohz.

den the gravy. sigh! my brother say too watery. the spaghetti in school also watery wad. i cannot copy mehz. haha.

and my brother said: next time you see how i cook. whY? coz his spaghetti really Can Make IT while mine.. cannot make it ones. haha!

dearest. next time change menu. change to fried rice okie? that one easier hor? or home cooked food. i can cook that! haha! if u dare to eat lah. maybe i try first just in case you LS. haha.

and the shoutbox got problem ones. i couldnt reply the tags..

was on the phone earlier with bestie. talking about what im gonna prepare tmr. naming out the food ingredients all. its making me hungry lohz. especially when we mentioned, cheesy hot dog. haha.

went tampines and played badminton with nelson esmond and ky. after playing for about 25 mins. im very tired already. cannot take it already. haha. and right now, my arm's feeling painful. its aching. haha. had fun afterall. run and run jump and jump. haha.

and im craving for xian cai ya tang frm ECP. i cant wait to eat it. aRghh..

i cant wait for tmr too.. im hungry for tmr. haha!

few weeks or months ago, i dont remember when. serene came over to my place and saw my cute little gongs gongs. and i took pictures of them with serene's hp. i dont like milky. tigger is cuter. he is more -shang jing- haha so i choose to take pictures of him hahahaah!


tigger cute horz? but he is a super blur cat. always run and bang his head on my leg. once on the wall. -shakehead-


sometimes he likes to be under my pinky chair, bought from ikea hahah! his new found little home? haha


sometimes he is just so ignorant. im trying hard to capture his attention, but he dont even bother about me. sighz.


and finally he is looking high up, why? coz im holding on to rubber band to catch his attention. and u know, cats are super filled with curiousity.


not only he wonder whats im holding, he even jumps to touch it. haha!


he cant be bothered with me still. -shakehead-


serene. cant wait to take a pic with my cute gong gong tigger. haha!

and the pictures below i took it from janice's bloggie..


this is milky, when she yawns. not pretty liao. haha


when they fight.. haha. actually they fight and play is the same la.


tigger likes massaging and he likes to be touched by people. he likes most is to be loved. haha! esp by.. ME!!! am just kidding. he loves everyone. he dont meow with anger at outsiders. he is a friendly catty. haha!


this is his old home. haha! man..aint he cute? haha! how i wish to hug him tight tight. haha.

cats are cute aint they? haha! some la. but not all. haha. to me.. tigger is the best! hahaa!

its michelle's birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!!!!!!

was watching this show on channel five earlier. irene ang was the guest of the show if im not wrong. she went to this place where theres chocolate cake! oh my!!! im like drooling while i see her indulging herself eating the chocolate cake!!! man the chocolate cake really look so delicious to me. how i wish i could just eat it! haha! its like when you spread the cake apart, you can see the melted chocolate coming out. ohhh man.. i love it!! i love chocolate cakes!! i guess everything about chocolate i just love it lahz. haha!

it was raining like mad. the lightning and thunder totally scares me off. its so bright and soooo loud. i couldnt even hear the volume from my television.

im so touched. haha. my brother bought me burger. from BK. haha! mushroom swiss double. i love it. but he gave me half and half of the large size fries. haa! better than nothing. haha. was thinking how to settle my dinner. haha. and thank God. my brother is here! hahaz.

stayed back in school to help Mr Tay to do some stuff la. quite easy to do ones. haha. and i think being a teacher is really a tough job. have to arrange for so many things and check so many things. i think being a teacher really need loadsa patience and the will to do things. hahaz.

btw to nelson ong. thanks ah! pig. haha. for all the rubbish on the board today hor. thanks ah! and im not wad sleeping beauty and late queen okie. maybe u rubbish king hor? hahahahahahahahaha!

waited for the bus No. 2 to go home. man the bus is so filled with people. and i waited for soo long for it lohz. sighz. in the end took No.31 instead. i really dislike waiting for bus. its soo soo long.. sighz.. train patience... so.. nvm!

and dearest.. i cant wait for saturday! haha! im already hungry for the food im gonna prepare on that day. haha!

and im gonna play badminton tmr! yeah! and im gonna DANCE at home like mad this weekend! im just waiting for my DDR mat to be back. and i can get crazie already! haha! i cant wait. i cant wait. haha!

and 19 days more to my special day!!!!! haha! time flies ya. haha!

dearest. please cheer up and cool down. just read it. forgiveness is the key to ur happiness!! remember okie!

hi my dear faithful readers. no idea why. i really miss all my friends. i wanna hug you people tight tight. haha! i miss bestie most la. didnt meet you for like dont know how long. actually not very long lah, but to me its long. wuahaha.

okies. my day today~ went to school today, got there at 9am hehe. its BSA lesson, head in sat down and get to work. still drilling hard for that MS Access. having a test on that on 9 Nov. such a pain in my head la. i hate to do that link/relationship thing. i totally gone like blackout?

had CSC lesson followed by EFW lesson. CSC lesson to me is a very boring lesson. actually i prefer EFW rather than CSC. at least im able to do some work during EFW lesson. CSC lesson, im like underline this and that. it cant really get to my head la. had EFW progress test today on Minutes Of Meeting. thank God i know a little of it.

and my finals are coming. in a month or so. and aRgh..i left my final year exam timetable in school.was doing that MS Access and i forgotten all abt that precious paper.ARGH..anyway, its two papers in nov nias. haha! but i guess it aint easy. its EFW- Effective Writing and OFP- Office Procedure. for EFW i still can loosen myself a little, as for OFP i can really -faint- but i know i can do it la. no problem ones. haha! oh..and today is the day my CA hand up the debarment list to dont know who la. his superior or the director la. and i hope my name is not part of it.. sigh! im so worried!

after school, went Parkway with yeelin and lenz. my goodness, went old chang kee and the lady called lenz- xiao jie,xiao mei- i was like laughing out loud please. this lenz is a GUY lohz but look really like a BUTCH la. haha! and walked around the shopping center went to GIANT and i cant resist the temptation of the CHOCOLATE WAFFLE, so i went to buy it! yum yum!! had durian pie. that durian taste is really strong la. dont really like it. and had cheese tart. oh my... its MMMMMMMM delicious!!! haha! was looking high and low for the cheesy hot dog, but it seem nowhere to be found. haha!

i bought milk for myself yesterday. i think my bones are weak, they need to be strengthen haha! go walk walk, here pain there pain. BTH. sit on chair my backbone pain, i guess i should bring cushion to school! haha!

and my graduation day is on Jan 06. its either 9Jan06 or 11Jan06. i forgot the date. and the dresscode is formal. im so gonna work to get the clothings. haha! im so excited for it. haha. and more and more things to do. more exercising. more sun tanning, i hope. more shopping, more chilling more of everything! im ready for holidays. im so ready for it. haha! if you are bored or wanna go out to play, feel free to call me.

my brother will be flying off to dont know where. i think Australia for his NS thing la. i dont know what. and sigh. i'll be totally ..... i will miss him many many. he told me yesterday to take care and not let that aunt to "eat me". well. i guess if he is not in singapore, my life wouldnt be any better lahz. coz i know that woman will find trouble with me ones. these days been thinking abt how she treat me. the way she talk to me when im at her place and the way she talk to me when we are both outside. man, shes so different. i'll be forgiving. i let it go. sometimes i really feel like screaming at her but well.. RESPECT ma. so respect her and let her roar lohz. but when she goes overboard, i dont know what will i do. i might just scold her. scream at her say her?do you know who's the one who scold me before my new week starts? its her. before my new year begin, its her. Argh i feeling so upset over her. when parents aint in singapore, these are the people i'll have to bear. but she is just so intolerable. coz it dont happen once in a while. it happens all the time. whenever i see her, i'll get it. thank God for the patience i have.

but well, i dont hate her. i hate the way she behaves. can you imagine, she is always talking about money to me everyweek. shes freaking materialistic. and she is trying to make me to be like her. oh man. how i wish to tel her to just save it. and ask me to get a BF with a BIG BIG badge on his NS dont know what la. what rubbish. and said im stupid coz i did not hang out with a man whom i think he is rich. even asked before if i wanna be her god daughter. i rather not. what if she sell me off for more money? oh. she married to uncle not becos of love anyway. she is one of those chinawoman whom i dislike like mad.

thats abt the spoiler la. the first to spoil my week. without fail. thinking back, my life is interesting la. with spoilers around to fan me better than noone to fan me den very bored ones. and its one way to train me on handling well with my temper and patience. wow. i think she is doing a good job till now. coz i haven blow up yet haha!must love her. Bible says Love my ENEMIES.so i still love her for all her rubbish. and i guess i will just have to keep on keeping on.......

endless road...

to loved and be loved.

The truth is tearing up my heart

I can't recongize this place

The endless road without a stop sign

Can't even find a stranger this time

(Chorus)

Why am I still holding back my tears

In this loneliness there's nothing (left) to fear

Every chord still seems a wonder

How could we be together

Everytime I ask if this would be the last

Why am I still talking to myself

Hoping you will have the keys to my cell

Every song might calm the weather

But it just draws me deeper

How do I get out of this

I think i never will

A crystal forming in the eye

Maybe this would be the last

The winding path down my face

Till I begin to taste the bitterness inside

(Repeat Chorus)

Why am I still holding back my tears

In this loneliness there's nothing (left) to fear

Every chord still seems a wonder

How could we be together

Everytime I ask if this would be the last

Why am I still talking to myself

Hoping you will have the keys to my cell

Every song might calm the weather

But it just draws me deeper

How do I get out of this

I think i never will

I never will

just finish watching the america's next top model. great show. i love this show. haha. and the winner for the competition is nahema, dont know if i spelled her name correctly. haha. she is beautiful. love her. i like her stage performance. man she rule the stage. haha. her pose, man. shes HOT. too HOT. hahaz.

went tampines with michelle, yeelin and nelson after school. had lunch over at Long John Silvers. went to walk around. chit chatted. went to Baby's Apperal shop. man. i so love the little childrens clothing. its beautiful. haha! and i saw this very cute newborn baby at the supermarket. so small and cute. was fast asleep. haha! so cute!! haha! and saw this little baby. double eyelids ones. so beautiful. haha!

im missing many people...i guess i wont be going out for awhile.. sighz. why must exams be so near that precious day of mine? dont care. i die die also must go out to get crazie. its my day! but sighz. will i spend a lonely precious day this time round? everyone's preparing for exams. so am i. sighz. why? why cant exams just be later? or better.. no exams! hahahahaha! im dreaming.. i know~

tell me tell me the words to define..

beloved, this is for you.hehe.

When i was lost, i could not see
All the beauty and wonder, wrapping around me.
I was alone, dreaming of you
Oh i could not imagine this dream coming true.
So much joy now, in all that i touch
You make me feel everything so much.

Chorus
I will love you for the earth at my feet.
I will love you for the sun in the sky.
I will love you for the falling rain, oh oh oh oh
I will love you for the heart that could break.
I will love you for the dreams that we share.
I will love you for the falling rain, oh oh oh oh

Face in the wind, tears from my eyes
Baby, where have you been?
But i was, always, waiting for you. (oh baby)
To pull back the door.
To take me by the hand and lead me through.
This whole world was a stranger to me. (stranger to me)
Now you have opened my heart to everything.

(repeat chorus)
SpokenLike a whisper in a dream,
You walk softly into my life
With love and sweet emotion
And as i gaze into your eyes
I see the beauty that god has created.
And i love you girl,
Now and forever...

Repeat chorus
Oh, yeah, baby...hey,hey,
baby,nah nah nah

Repeat chorus
Oh oh oh, baby, yeah

just got up. was feeling so disturbed thou i was asleep. coz i was dreaming abt some people i shouldnt have lah. one was in the past and one was some stupid dream lahz. its so disturbing to my sleep so i rather wake up and find something to do. i cant believe it. i ACTUALLY go and dream about that ONE in the past. man, i think it suck. and for the present one, i guess it will never happen ones. haha. it suck too anyway. haha. oh and i dreamt of something. it totally SUCK! know why? i dreamt that i FAIL all my module. damnit. i dreamt that i was online looking at results, scrolling thru, first FAIL second FAIL third FAIL man! i felt so STRESSED! imagine my sleep, my dream? all like this. how to SLEEP? and, its still 20 something days to the exam. and my first paper starts just right after my birthday! ARGHH. i hate it.

i was early for school on friday! am i good? haha! i was there at 9am thou lesson starts at 8am lah. its the earliest timing out of the latest timing worz. and my teacher was glad that i appeared haha!

went town yesterday to shop for gifts. walked pass the undies shop, man i love the undies. so cute! haha! and walked pass the bikini's shop. man i saw one.. super nice one. price at ard 30. and im still dreaming about that now. haha. and converse bag pjt bag and clothes and belts. oh man... when can i work?

im so stressed. exams are coming and ive yet to start revising. man. im so gonna start cracking brain cells. haha! first MS access test and i know very little about it. can Mr Goh come and teach instead? kitty cmi ones. sighz. i guess im very used to Mr Goh's teaching. so i want Mr Goh la. dont go on course liao la. and followed by CSC. i know quite a little about that. just need some revision.. haha. as for Access.. GOD PLS help ME!!

and if some of you met me.. saw my beautiful big pimple just right under my nose? it look totally the same as the first pimple breakout ive got last year loh. but thank God its no longer on my nose. haha. its right below my NOSE! sighz. so big can. i wonder when it can no longer be seen. sighz. and just coz of that pimple, i went to buy facial wash. so ma fan. usually uses tap water to wash face. now got this pimple. have to use facial wash. so ma fan ones. and from now, im using facial wash, just in case another big big breakout. it causes me to walk with fear..when i walk pass ppl i will cover it just to prevent anyone from seeing it but sigh.. most saw it la. aRghh. i hate pimples.

just ended the webcam session with dad. talked for only an hour plus plus dad says he's tired, eyes tired. -shakehead- so i was saying: hello im your daughter and you talk for only an hour only lohz! and he said ya you are my sweet daughter. haha! and den i change topic and continue talking hahahaahha! but den he is really tired. so, i'll be kind, let him off. haha!

had loadsa topic to talk to dad about! its so funny. talk about boyfriends and freedom and going out and the world and how blessed is he for having a daughter like me! haha! and why he wanna REMARRIED and DID HE PLAN. he replied: no need plan, ive got everything. i was like DOTZ.

and now i know that having this step sis was all along a gurantee for step mama. and my sister really can talk already!!!!!! haha. and walk! one and a half years old now. and man she is soooo young! i have a sister and she is only one and a half years old. omg!

showed him my bloggie and he wow! and asked how did i do that. haha. and i replied: im so clever ma. haha! and he said something: do you know i am the different father? im different from others father. wo dong de zer mer be human. haha! i agree he is different. no dad talks to their daughter the way he does haha! and im the different daughter then, i talk to my dad like my friend my buddy but he like to say im a gen pi cong!sigh! den he have no choice but to listen to my complains my nags my nonsense and many many. and while chatting with him.. i noticed that in less than 45 mins he had already smoke twice liao. sighz. and he tell me that is his only ler qu. omg! and i complained to him about people that smokes people that drinks people that gamble. and i said: thank God he is not a gambler or alcoholic haha! and whenever we webcam, he never fails to hear me nagging at him about smoking lesser. haha!

he asked for my result. i dont know how to tell him. i just receive my class test result on one sub one topic. and that topic ive got only 60/100 omg i dont wanna live already. its a C please. sigh. and my teacher said that ive deproved. from 77/100 become 60/100. see how bad is it.. sigh! im close to an A but now C! sigh. im so sad about it. sigh!

he called on friday and i dare not tell him im going to club coz im afraid he might be worried and just now i confessed to him about it. hehe. but i told him i told his beloved son about it. haha! isnt it good to just talk to dad about everything. haha! omg. im glad to have such a great dad. haha! and he must be glad to have a daughter like me! -grins-

and dad told me about my brother when he was younger! haha. when wilson was younger he played with the fish in the fish tank, and he told dad that the fish very good/guai, never jump already. and when dad was about to go for work, saw many ants near his briefcase. open it and man!!! its that FISH! my brother put that fish in the briefcase and that is why its so guai never jump already! and dad n i laughed out loud! haha! and dad say that the fish very hard to buy one. and all thanks to wilson for killing it! haha!

oh. i bought cheesy hot dog ytd! i love it!! bought four coz money not enuff to buy ten la. haha four already cost 4.70 liao lehz. haha! so im afraid i might finish that cheesy hot dog ytd, i bought chicken hot dog to take over cheesy hot dog! wuahaha. and i had one cheesy hot dog and three chicken hot dog ytd! yum yum!

cheeseeeee i love it!!!

OH MY~

hehe. oh my.. know what? ive been using this computer for so long and i actually dont know that my baby picture are in the files! haha! and one of my kindergarten picture also. oh my! i was like! WOW! haha i tot i dont have any pictures of me in my younger days haha!

and here is it:


man i know i look terrible. haha! i cant believe it, its my first time looking at this picture also. haha


since when i took this pic?i dont even know that. and its my first time looking at this picture too. haha!

and janice. i guess you would love to see this!!!!! haha i was shocked too. haha! but i guess he is so damn cute!!! haha!


this is wilson also known as JESSIE'S BROTHER. haha! aint he cute. oh man. why he so cute and skinny while i look so ugly and FAT? haha!


hehe! its HIM! haha! how cute! haha! and its at our taiwan home i guess! haha!

so we were once a SCHOLAR! hahahahahahaha!

wang shi zhi neng hui wei~

INTERVIEW~

went for a job interview today. hehe. i hope they will employ me soon. haha! i cant wait to shop, to clear debts, to play! haha. holidays are coming. but still got a month plus plus to go. haha. im so happy! hahaz

my cats are hungry cats. meowed at me for the whole day. they ate one and a half canned of food and one small canned of salmon in juicy savor. and still meowed at me. aRgh.. and they aint stupid, i locked them in the room and they purposely push out all the things that they scratch out the door and dirtied the floor ive cleaned. ARGhh..

wilson came back and then went to Sentosa. and when he got back from Sentosa. HE dirtied the house!!! ARGH! not only he bringing himself back home, he brought SAND back too! theres sand in e basin and sand in the bathroom. never even clean it! ARgh.. come back home socks anyhow throw. wear slipper and walk in the house! waa.. i was like!!! then i clean so hard for waD? just one day and he like that. sighz!!! its like waste of my effort lohz! what if one day i stopped cleaning? i hate it when i cleaned so hard and in just a day, someone come and dirty it. felt as if my effort has gone to waste. noone appreciates it man. it just make me feel like not doing anything and let the house be as smelly and as untidy. damnit. and i dont do housework all the time one okie! ARGH! if you said thanks and still dirtied it, why thank me? thanks for cleaning and for you to dirty it and then clean again?just one day man. one day.

but after so long, ive learned smth. how to squeeze a mop with my hands! haha. and i've learned how to only this year. y? coz last year my maid do the job ma. now no choice ive got to learn. and im so proud of myself!! hehe. coz i can squeeze it without using that thing on the pail ones. haha!

and ive grown a little stronger. haha. y? coz im always afraid of opening the dustbin u know that open and close dustbin coz im afraid theres lizard snake xiao qiang or other thing la. but now im okie with it. and im used to be so frightened to sleep alone and always ask grandma to sleep with me, now im no longer afraid. hehe. and this year i finally know how to cook at least one dish! haha! its the ABC soup which includes pork, carrot, sweetcorn, potato, onions haha! and ive learned how to cook spaghetti. haha! and rice haha! can you imagine? i was eating hard rice and i thought that the rice is spoilt. i dont even know that ive put too little water before letting the rice to be cooked. haha! and i like going marketing, but im just too lazy to wake up early in the morning to buy fish chicken and etc la! haha and i cant stand the smell la.

but i did not overcome the fear of killing and picking up xiao qiang (cockcroaches). never can i do it.

hmm i guess im still blessed. i was living a good life all these years with maid doing all the job! haha! and i guess its time for me to do things myself. and one thing bad about having a maid, you tend to be very lazy! and i dont deny coz i am. i even ask my maid to bring me a glass of water. haha!

wow. ive grown to be more independent this year! but i depend more on my brother. my brother ma. dont depend on him, depend on who? haha. besides God.

i pray to be a stronger person as each day go.......

i used to wish for a house of my own. just my brother grandparents and myself living in it. and ive wished for 16 years. and ive got it. but now, i wish for a house just for me myself and i. and i can only dirty my own home. i dont want anyone else to dirty my home. and now, for my future mr right, cleaniness must be his top piority. dont tell me guys are likdat, to me thats all bullshit. coz i know someone who likes to be clean.

- tmr will be a better day- i pray.

* its better to give than to receive.*

*i reap what i sow* when?

The SEVEN things!

hehe. went to TF's blog and read about SEVEN THINGS. haha! i think its fun! hehe. so i decided to do also!!!!! wuahahahahahahaha!!!

Seven Things That Scares Me:
- xiao qiang (cockcroaches)
- lizards
- no money
- insane people
- lightning/thunder
- darkness
- loneliness

Seven Things I Like Most About Me:
- im friendly
- i like to have fun
- hatred dont lies in me
- forgetful ( some things are best to be forgotten, and it works for STM people like me)wuahaha
- im a woman of my word
- im simpleminded
- singlehood lies within me

Seven Things I Hate Most About Me:
- laziness
- sleep too much
- complain too much
- think too much
- my short hair
- im too short
- im poor!!

Seven Most Important Things In My Room:
- computer
- bed
- blanket
- pillow
- fan
- MIRROR
- wardrobe

Seven Random Facts About Me:
- i was a Librarian, and was from the Chinese dance in primary school
- i am a Gold award holder for swimming
- i was from Netball, Dance and Movement, Hockey in Secondary School
- i have a best friend, my only one best friend, and she is JLSW
- i love peace, i want peace
- i love dad ,grandma, grandpa and my brother
- i love to chill out with friends, walking down town and movies

Seven Things I Plan To Do Before I Die:
- Be a Secretary of a Large Organisation
- Meet my Mr Right
- Save Money
- pursue Higher Qualification in Business
- fly to Taiwan, HongKong, Australia, New Zealand, Percelona ( spell correctly?), Disneyland, Har Er Bing, Japan, Korea
- Able To Contribute to my Family financially
- Car!! BEETLE CAR my FAV! PINK one!!

Seven Things I Cant Do:
- kill! hahahahaha!
- ran away from home
- stop loving my brother, dad, grandma, granddad
- play the drumset in my room
- repair the spoilt light in my bathroom
- pick up a dead xiao qiang
- wake up even when the alarm is ringing or a morning call from friends. hahahahahaha!

Seven Things I Say Most:
- HI
- whatever
- damn
- Shut Up
- Bye
- Miss You
- im hungry

Seven Celeb Crushes:
- EDISON CHEN
- Daniel Wu
- Keanu Reeves
- Leonado Dicapio
- Chad Michael Murray
- the actor from EndlessLove ( Jun Xi)
- the actor from Endless Love ( Tai Xi)

Seven People I'll Love See Doing This:
- Joanna
- Janice
- Marcus
- Cason
- Sharon
- Wilson
- Cindy

THE END~

Rainy Sunday~

its raining. yeah! raining! i love it. can slack can dream at home. haha! well got up from my dreamland around 12++pm. would love to sleep longer but my mind just wanna pack the entire house, clean the entire house. coz its SUNDAY! haha! i dont wanna start my week with a messy house. a new week a new mood. haha!

got up fold clothes wash bowls, my BROTHER use the utensils and everything he never WASH them! aRgh. nvm i wash then. and cleaned my cats TOILET! aRgh. man it totally sucks. and packed, sweeped and mopped, wiped, cleaned the TOILET. hmm this time round my basin looks better, coz someone has not been home to dirty it lohz. im so glad. haha!

had been going out this week. everyday. haha! went bugis den marina square and marina square again and marina square again. haha! had been hanging around bugis and marina square lah. i wonder when will i step down orchard. haha!

wanted to get the project workshop bag but i received my hp bill. sigh!! i rather clear the bill first than to satisfy myself. haha!so pjt workshop bag please wait for me.

its darren's birthday on friday and he is celebrating his birthday at this place which i wasnt interested. guess where? Liquid Room. went there, i like the surroundings. nice. if i could have a bar counter at home and the wall thing at home. wow! i would love it! haha. BUT! i dont like the place!

step in there i couldnt see everyone's face clearly and the music sucks. not playing r&b or techno. and the lights are really irritating. my eyes got so painful can. people go there and they are like so energetic and having fun. while i felt so tired. not because of the friends there, but i guess i just dont like the music the fast blinking lights so -chi yan- aRghh.. and i came across something which i hope i would never see again. some people go there and misbehave. i shall not elaborate. i was smsing jo asking her: omg. what is going on with the world?

and i will not go there again.

and i hate COMPLICATED people.

and went out ytd with nelson, ky, cason, nicholas, jr. nel's bro- forgot his name and jo. watched The Skeleton Key. man, the ending of the show sucks. and everyone said: thanks ar jessie. but i watched the thriller, it wasnt that bad lehz. argh. nvm. i would not encourage others to watch it la.

thank God i did not watch The Wig. ytd i scare myself, know what happen?hehe.. theres a bag behind my door and i off the light and got ready for bed and i look over at my door, aRgh.black black ones. and i remember The Wig. haha! and i faster walk over and touch touch.. and phew..its a bag. haha! -roll eyes- hhahaaah!

im drooling for it!!!

oh gosh! was out with dearest after school. dearest went home to a short nap while im still studying. more like slacking in school. haha. basically we did nothing much. theres no Effective Writing lesson today due to a talk which i did not attend. talk very boring. and its abt Dr someone someone. nothing about school work. so i choose not to attend. haha. den had Office Procedures lesson. short lesson lah. did nothing much. underline and underline notes only. den Business Software Application lesson, Mr Goh on leave due to his precious son, having Chicken Pox. so slacked throughout. played 3D pool. haha! didnt know its so fun to play pool using the computer. i was making so much noise. exp: WADDA HELL. how come likdat. aRgh. hahahaha!

oh back to the outing with dearest. went down Bugis had dinner. at Mos Burger. treated her for that meal. please go and thank God that i got that allowance so that im able to treat you this meal. haha. before the arrival of JLSW i went window shopping ALONE. thanks to dearest. haha! walked and walked. saw many many things. and basically two things caught me! haha. its this bag from converse.. its lime green in color and it cost 39.90 if im not wrong. man thats alot. sighz! and i saw this bag from project workshop its black in color and it cost 42.00! omg! fainted. and little pouch from project workshop. coz 7++. walk pass levis and i drooled! haha. i saw the jeans i wanna get when i get my pay if im working lahz. and i saw this jeans mini skirt from BUM equiptment its super nice and i love it. haha. then went to Bugis street saw those shoes and im loving it. and accessories.. oh my. im fainting. haha! and went to Mary Jane, ARGH. i couldnt find the top ive seen the previous visit to MJ. aRghh..wanna admire at that top also cant! so sad man!

but in all. i just wanna get the converse bag. haha! i love it so much!!! next the project workshop bag haha!i wish!!!! haha!and den walked all the way from Bugis to Raffles to get Mjphosis bag. and den walked to Suntec to eat Yami Yogurt ice cream. haha! hmmmmm so yummy! im lovin it! haha.and i wanna watch Skeleton Key, April Snow, The Wig, 40 year old virgin. and ARghh.. im still not able to lahz! if it could just wait for me.. haha i will definetly catch it! deaarest say she dont mind catching it with me. hmm.. let me think of where to watch.. at "high class" cinema like you say! and i know you are not a low class lady haha! but need to wait till we are both working lah. high class places need to wait. haha! patience please.

haha!while walking. dearest turn mad. walked off from me man. at citylink. aRghh..and she walked real fast and i couldnt catch up with her. so i leave her to walk her lonely walk! ahaha! and i took the stairs while she took the escalator. she turned back and couldnt see me. man her look! omg. i just wanna laugh out LOUD! haha! and she pinched me. she said im not human coz it aint painful. she is siao. haha! i think she turned mad today a little screw loose.

haha!anyway. wadever it is. keep on keeping on. noone to trust. erm..trust God lohz. haha!im on holiday one FRIDAY! haha! aint a good day for me anyway. sighz! 141004. aRghh! he left me! i missed him madly!

theres only like afew hours of lesson today. in all 3 hours lahz. lesson starts at 8 am. first lesson ended at 10am den have to attend SW(PE) lesson but that teacher never appear ones. so the whole class went off. dismissed ourselves lahz. had lunch at Cafe one and off for home. sianz.

got home, as usual login to the internet and start staring at the screen. hahaz. as boring lahz. didnt want to take a afternoon nap. but im too tired lahz. so i slept from 1++pm till 440pm. man how long. wanted to sleep longer. but im afraid i sleep too much till i cant attend lesson tomorrow. hahaz.

saw ting today. i miss her so much. thou squeezing in that bus 31 may be a little uncomfortable. we still talked. haha! dont forget to give me all your notes for the course im taking next year okie. thanks darling!

be blessed all..

Romantic Dinner of three. haha~

had dinner over at TBP with wilson and janice. we went to Griller for dinner. hmm. the atmosphere, WOW! haha! wilson love the place. was sitting outside whereby we could see the sky and there's this thing la. dont know how shall i say it. on the table got fire ones.oh isit candle light dinner?. haha! its so romantic! i love it like crazie. haha!

i had fish and chips, the fish is like wow! its very nice. yummy. and corn soup. haha! very nice also. and its affordable for us student cos theres student meal. haha.

did housework today. cleaned almost everything larz. thanks to jan for helping. heez. had chicken rice for lunch. man that chicken rice.. CMI. i prefer Far East one. haha!

my cute tigger is afraid of hair dryer. he can go mad over the hair dryer. he must be crazie. and milky is a smart cat lah. but she likes to jump out into my balcony. super active. and she always piss me off with her stupid look. haha! but i think she is still cute. haha! oh. she got the qian bian look. haha! very qian bian.

basically my day today went just fine. wake up then do housework then slack a little play a little eat and blog. this is what i did today. haha! and i slept for only 6+ hours only lohz. aRgh.. no idea why i just couldnt slp lahz.

and wilson went back to camp and im super bored now. jan went home and im alone with my cats. and they are pig lohz. eat finish they sleep arGH! and im like staring and my computer for almost everyday....... i want my holidays i want to play i want to work i want to do many many things! and my holidays are coming!!! soon real soon!! 23rd of november. haha!

i had FUN~

well. got home around 12+++ am. was out with nelson, ky and cason. went to ms. played pool while waiting for the movie and also went K box-ing.. watched into the blue. a good show i must say. abit scary to me lah. funny thou. scary as in when they fight and when they got injured man i feel the ouch for them lars. and this lady, acted as sam in the movie. she is so HOT! and jerry as sam's bf. he is so MACHO. haha! haha!

at kbox. took pictures..and i took loadsa pictures.. haha! just bear with me. haha!




the lights are super nice. i love it. theres different colors one. haha!


its green light now. haha!


ky singing.. haha!


nelson the remote controller. forever holding on to the remote.


nelson singing~





when they are singing. i must keep myself entertained. so i take picturess..haha!








marcus called while im in the midst of entertaining myself. haha!


tadah!! here i am!










cason and myself




look how cool are they!!




us!














ky and myself






meeeeeeee!!



thats all! thats alot hor?haha!

i had fun after all. thanks to cason ky and nelson!!! -winks-

It's Saturday~finally~~~

just got up from bed due to a call from wilson. wanted to sleep a little longer but i cannot already. i had a dream a very stupid dream. wuahaha. but i love that dream. haha! shall not say the details here. its damn stupid larz.

yesterday i watched this show. 3 Ninja Kids. oh my.. they are so great! so smart! theres one boy. he is so cute! haha. and theres one, was named as tom tom a small boy.. oh.. he is so smart, the way he whack his enemy was like WOW. how smart this kid is. haha. well. its just a show.. im amazed la. haha.

den during the night. watched fear factor. oh my Goodness. they have to put their head in a lard. and the amount of lard was like..yucks! its totally gross. and besides putting their head in, they got to use their tongue to search for tongues in the lard.oh man how gross can this be. yuck! and theres is full of fish oil and dead fish.. they have to put their head in and also use their tongue to search for fish in the oil. yuck.its freaking oily. and in all was to win this two sports car if im not wrong.. i thought the two girls best friend couldnt do it.. but surprisingly they did it. i was like WOW! hahaz.

and......sigh.. how i wish.. i wish i could just keep on keeping on and hanging there..but sometimes im tired. im disappointed. he gives me nothing..really nothing. what a disappointment. but well i still love you.

and to nelson, thanks for the little help yesterday. it meant a lot to me. hee. im better now. haha! you are such a great buddie!!

and im going out later..add more tonight~

be blessed everyone!

New Skin Again~

got home in the noon and i've got nothing to do. so i went to read other people's bloggie. and i came across this skin. i was like WOW, i fell in love with it. and it totally fits right up to the mood im in. i just love it so much! i think its GREAT.haha!

the only problem i've got with this skin is that i couldnt change the font size and the font. i was trying and trying and i still couldnt get it done. sighz. but well its okie. i still like it. and the song i added in, i think its great. i love it so much. and i even wanted to learn how to play it which i find it so hard. and i only know how to play just ONE song. haha! and that is Endless Love ones. haha!

okie. wonder what i've been doing today?hees. went to school and had a talk about entering the SIM/SIM University after completing my Higer Nitec course in ITE. well. at first i was like WOW!! its such a great opportunity for us ITE students to pursue better Education in life. and i was like.. i want to go i want to go that mindset la. i was so interested in the full time course in SIM but..when i heard about the price of the Course fee.. sigh..everything just blow la. and theres 15 subject to learn. wow! i think its a lot. sighz. after all i guess i should just stay on the current aim i want.. to higer nitec and to poly. at least its affordable.. i hope. haha.

after that went to explore the Career Fair which was held at our Function Hall. wow! theres so many jobs. haha. theres Courts, Carrefour, Army, Police Force, The Navy, Shangri-la, and many more i dont remember lahz. and i was so excited..coz im so in need of money. and im dying for a job lahz. so i went to apply to work at Courts, Carrefour and Shangri-la. for Courts, i applied for Admin Assit, Cust Care. for Carrefour hehe..Cashier, which im not so interested in la.but try lohz. gain new experiences ma.hahaz. and Shangri-la for Front Desk Agent. erm. the person who is standing at the counter of the hotel to check in or out for the people. heehe...i would love to try that. hopefully i'll get in to any of those..hehe..

oh..i wanted to join the POLICE.hehe. i wanna catch people!haha. but the moment when i took a look at the booklet..i was laughing.. hello!! REQUIRED HEIGHT: 162 cm! thanks ah! haha.and i was looking at this lady..and i dont think she has the height but how come she's in? and laughed la. 162 cm..please..it can never happen..haha!

okie.went to meet marcus for dinner. had KFC hehe. im in love with their HOT DEVIL. haha. man i just love it. my cats love it too. they were fighting for one of the drumlets. haha! and walked to maxwell to slack and eat again.. and chatted la. haha! thanks for the Fried dumplings! next time lets eat the xiao long bao. haha. i wonder if its better than Ding Tai Feng... haha!

treat wilson for dinner. hehe. and he said when he got his pay he will treat me a NICE meal. haha! i hope he mean it.. i hope he is a MAN of HIS WORD. haha!